oufff will I ever get this right?

Since I've started this blog I don't think I've done much in the way of change.I know the basics, that I want a good life filled w/ love , laughing and I want to be content. I want to use my brain for something. How the hell do I figure out what though?

So here's the thing, I know I should consider myself lucky. and I do. But that doesn't mean I need to be satisfied with where my life is. Should I not want more (by more I mean contentment,etc).