ahhh day whatev

so I've lost about 3 ell bees! and I've been working out which helps my brain clear out.
I paid all my bills today and that's all I can ask for at this point.

Day 33

so over 1 month into this and really, things haven't gotten better. I'm tired all the time and all I want to do is sleep, or drink. not good

Day 25

I made an appointment to see a therapist. It was supposed to be this morning. But I cancelled it. I woke just feeling like I couldn't deal w/ the soul searching. I don't regret it really.

Weight watchers is going well, I'm staying within my points.

Day 24

I'm thinking I'd like to start seeing a counselor/therapist. I don't think I can do this alone. With everything going on this world, I just see no end in sight.

Day 22

I joined Weight Watchers online! they have afree 7 day trial so I figured why not?

I realized this blog so far has focused a lot on weight loss. I've got at least 15 lbs before I'd feel good. So it's not a huge weight loss but to me, because I'm so short, it's more like 25 lbs would be on someone taller.
Anyway, I thought it's be good to revisit the other part of this project. Figuring out what the hell I want to do with my life besides just survive. I'll be navel gazing about that todya.

Day 19

Ick, this is hard to try to change my life. This week I'm exceptionally down. I think it's due to the wine I drink. I know alcohol in general is a depressant but wine esp does it to me.